dline- i think you owe us an apology. who said it was your fault ? who blamed you for what happened to you? i never knew anything about it till u posted about it just now!! i never said severe depression is YOUR fault ! i didn't see this post until now and i never blamed you for anything. i had depression years ago and i was put on medication for it and saw a counselor about it. last year i had panic attacks over small spaces out of no where. the brain can turn on your in a second. i know that first hand. i just pray it doesn't happen again to me as i am off the medication and have been for over a year. so yes the brain can turn on your and yes i encourage anyone who is suffering to get help. i had 3 panic attacks bf i got help and my own Doctor told me "Jesus man, you should've came to be after the first one!" "No one should have to go through that!" so no Dline-i would never blame you, bc unlike others on the thread, i have been there myself!